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I have to be honest with you guys. Well, I have to be honest with myself, you guys, not so much. But. Anyways. I've been slacking. I can't really say why because I'm not really sure why but I haven't written in days. This WILL change. You guys don't care because this isn't helping you, but I just wanted to share with you guys. So today on my bus ride to Philly I'm going to write. Write. WRITE. Any downtime I have I shall WRITE. It's been written so it's real, I must commit to it. You guys enjoy your Wednesday. We've made it over the HUMP!

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