I have to be honest with you guys. Well, I have to be honest with myself, you guys, not so much. But. Anyways. I've been slacking. I can't really say why because I'm not really sure why but I haven't written in days. This WILL change. You guys don't care because this isn't helping you, but I just wanted to share with you guys. So today on my bus ride to Philly I'm going to write. Write. WRITE. Any downtime I have I shall WRITE. It's been written so it's real, I must commit to it. You guys enjoy your Wednesday. We've made it over the HUMP!
TheFreeDictionary.com defines 'numb' as: " emotionally unresponsive ." I thought I was numb but I'm actually the complete opposite of that. I've felt every emotion imaginable in the past 24 hours. Denial, frustration, anger, confusion, pain. I've laughed, cried, screamed. I took a walk. I took a nap. I ignored some calls. I answered some texts. I think I'm still in some weird, warped form of denial. The loss of a loved one is insane. It's motions you go through and emotions you're absorbed in. And it never gets easier. In fact, I feel like as you get older and as more people begin to return home way too soon it's like, "oh no, not another funeral!" When I was younger I wasn't where I am religiously or mentally. I didn't fully understand the power of having your whole life ahead of you and making every moment count. I surely didn't understand that you can't question His timing. You rely on it daily so to que...
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