Yesterday was May 4th, better known as Star Wars Day. All hail the nerds and I mean that in the most respectful way possible. May the 4th be with you! Well. Now that that's over it's time to drink up. Don't ask me where I'm going. I have no idea. A land far away filled with margaritas and different shades of tequila. Don't judge me. I need this. This has been an eventful week. My honey bun Elle celebrated her birthday this week providing me with my first studio session ever. I finally got back on the track! I'm running 5K at 47mins, not impressing but not depressing either. I'm running in the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure this upcoming Sunday (May 12th, Mothers Day 2013) so I spent majority of my week soliciting donations. Soliciting has such a negative connotation but in reality that's what I did. I raised $208 out of $500 so I'm pretty confident I'll reach my goal come Sunday. Yesterday I hosted a brunch/information session to snag a couple more donations, let people know why I'm doing this and lowkey I really just wanted a mimosa. These are just my thoughts. An end of the week recap. Time to get dressed, Ms. Marie is on her way. You guys make sure you make it to work on time tomorrow...
TheFreeDictionary.com defines 'numb' as: " emotionally unresponsive ." I thought I was numb but I'm actually the complete opposite of that. I've felt every emotion imaginable in the past 24 hours. Denial, frustration, anger, confusion, pain. I've laughed, cried, screamed. I took a walk. I took a nap. I ignored some calls. I answered some texts. I think I'm still in some weird, warped form of denial. The loss of a loved one is insane. It's motions you go through and emotions you're absorbed in. And it never gets easier. In fact, I feel like as you get older and as more people begin to return home way too soon it's like, "oh no, not another funeral!" When I was younger I wasn't where I am religiously or mentally. I didn't fully understand the power of having your whole life ahead of you and making every moment count. I surely didn't understand that you can't question His timing. You rely on it daily so to que...
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